Mask Of False?

I'm getting emo again...
hard to say tht i'm not confident to myself or to my frens...
not really willing to talk anything
or ask anything
i'm jz want to keep myself out of others
being the only one of my class had made me learn lots of things
for example
how to accept i'm a loser
and how to face others even though i'm really sick of it
jz keep my mouth shut is the best way

jz for somebody:
dear friend
or i shud say friends
for u guys
i'm not enuf confident in myself
to be a fren of u
or even a senior to u
mayb even not enuf confident to become a tramp in ur life
not ur fault
really
jz becoz i had been hurt too much times before
i'm not so confident wat if someday u guys ignore me as a fren
how will i think or do
i'm a pessimistic person
but tht is the only way i can keep myself out of hurt
even though i have to become alone
and live my life lonely